Post by bellz on Jun 17, 2010 13:00:21 GMT -5
Shawn Adam Goniter
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So your scars fade away, you soaked up the pain. A better person 'cause you lived through those days.
WEARING ?!
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The fact that Shawn and his sister managed to escape from those people shocked him. The one thing he knew for sure is that they wouldn’t report them as missing because if they did that then there might be the slight chance that the police would put the pieces together in their really missing person’s case. Shawn doubted that they would be smart enough to put those pieces together though. Shawn could only imagine what would happen if they caught them again. They’d probably end up dead, well he would at least. They didn’t like it when you misbehaved, and to them Shawn did the worst of the worst. He’d heard their speeches so many times it wouldn’t chock him if he just started to repeat it to them. That might earn him a nice slap to the cheek. They-being Selena and Toby-always had something to hit Shawn for. They obviously made a mistake by choosing to take him from his home wherever that was. He held on the those little memories he had of his first life. The one that seemed so sweet and were he didn’t have to worry about whether or not he would live to see another day. It was a life that was filled with happiness, and a girl Shawn could vaguely remember. The most he knew was that they had a special bond, if he even knew her. It could be just a slip in his imagination. Shawn did that a lot when he was locked down in that basement on days end with nothing better to do. If she was real, then she was what kept Shawn going. His little mind was focused on seeing her face once more when he was younger. But as he grew older, Shawn stopped believing that he would see that face again. There was only flickers of hope for him. He remembered as a child that he would call out a name, Samara, that was the name. Was this the name of the girl that he hoped to see the face of? It was possible, but Shawn didn’t know. He didn’t remember much of his previous life, but he knew that he had a family somewhere. They were a dim light, but he was focused on finding them.
Shawn scrunched his nose, and thought for a long moment. He didn’t have a clue on how to register someone into school. Hell, he didn’t even know when Jayleigh had been born, he could barely remember his birthday. Selena and Toby never told them their birthdays. Shawn supposed he could make one up, but he didn’t like lying to people. He couldn’t very well walk in there and say that he and his ‘sister’ were kidnapped at a young age, so he didn’t know her information. Shawn knew that there was a lot of paper work involved with enrolling someone into school, and well, Shawn just didn’t have those sort of papers. He doubted he could afford to get them either. They were like issued out when they were born or something like that. Either that or Selena and Toby had all their information. That wasn’t something Shawn had been thinking of when he grabbed Jayleigh and ran like crazy. He just thought about he wanted to get the heck out of there as fast he could. Shawn had no idea what he was doing. He didn’t know how to raise a kid because he was just a kid himself. He didn’t have a job, he probably couldn’t get one either. He had no proof of who he was. Crap, this really sucked. Shawn had no way of providing for Jayleigh, no way to get her an education. Well, this sucked a lot. Shawn should have thought about this before he showed up at the school because he was going to look like an idiot. He could get stuff from the store to teach Jayleigh with, but he didn’t want her to be in a hotel all the time. It would be like when they were with Toby and Selena. He didn’t want that for her, no he wanted her to make friends and be a social butterfly like she should have been when she was with her real family. Shawn wondered what it would be like for him if he was still with his real family. Would he be the way he was now? He doubted it. He’d probably be shy, but he’d have friends and things like that. He wouldn’t be super nervous to talk to his parents, or make a noise. He was pretty sure they wouldn’t smack him around, and abuse him. Shawn sighed, he wished desperately for that kind of life. He didn’t want this life anymore, he didn’t want a life on the run either. He just wanted a normal life, but he knew he wouldn’t get that. Not now, not ever. It didn’t seem fair, but life wasn’t fair, so it didn’t matter. Life hadn’t been fair to him or fair to Jayleigh. Life wasn’t fair to Selena and Toby, the people who wanted kids but couldn’t have any. The ones who had been declined by an adoption agency. He didn’t feel pity for the people who took him from his family, he just felt that they should have found a different way then taking someone else’s kids. That wasn’t fair to their families.
Shawn sat up from the hotel bed he was in, and looked around. He wasn’t quite sure what he was going to do today, there wasn’t a lot he could do, this town was sort of small. Plus, he didn’t have a car, but that couldn’t stop him from taking the bus. Jayleigh still needed some new clothes, so Shawn decided that they could go up to the mall they had in Port Angeles, it wasn’t that far away from here, so it would be okay. Shawn was still nervous that Toby and Selena would find them and drag them back with them. Shawn also feared what they’d do to him and Jayleigh, but that fear was mainly for Jayleigh. Shawn gently shook Jayleigh to wake her up, and told her to get dressed, and that they were going to the mall. Shawn had managed to get money, it wasn’t a lot, but it was enough to keep them alive for a while. Shawn changed into some clothes, then grabbed some cash from the drawer, and walked with Jayleigh to the bus stop. It wasn’t raining out, but it was cloudy, like always. Shawn remembered that it was always like this here, it was probably because he use to live here. Before he was taken of course. He really didn’t like that he didn’t get the chance for that normal childhood, but no one could take back what had happened. After standing there for twenty minutes, the bus finally came. It was at least another thirty minutes before they actually got to Port Angeles, but that was okay. Shawn liked the time to think, it was defiantly a good thing, but then again it could be pretty bad too. He got to think about everything that he could have possibly missed out on, which he was pretty sure he missed out on things.
After the bus came to a stop in front of the mall, Shawn escorted Jayleigh off the bus, and into the mall. Jayleigh hadn’t ever been out of the house like Shawn, and was new to the whole kid thing. She didn’t know what to do, she didn’t even understand why some of them acted the way they did. Shawn was the same way, he was so clueless on what to do, he didn’t understand what to do. ”Um, here’s fifty dollars, you can go shopping. I guess that’s what parents do,” he said handing her money. Shawn didn’t know if that’s what parents did nowadays, he wasn’t even a parent, technically. He was just her big brother, and not even her real one at that, but Shawn had always known that. Shawn watched as Jayleigh went off into the mall, he had told her to meet him back here in two hours, that should give her enough time to get what she needed. Shawn wondered into the food court, and watched the scene. These people were so strange, so Shawn decided that he was going to go into a store, he didn’t know which one to go into though. So, he just walked into a random one, and started to look around.
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STATUS?![/color] complete
WORD COUNT?![/color] 1,428
LYRICS?![/color] No Giving Up by Crossfade
NOTES?![/color] Erm..here! lol
CREDIT?![/color] Chapel?! of Caution 2.0
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