losing hold of [keisha] me

[may]

here I am, hopeful again, I can’t say when I wasn’t this way

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May looked at herself in the mirror. What a bitch it was to do. She saw every imperfection, everything that was possibly wrong with her. Her hair was too curly, too long, too ridiculous. Her eyes were too plain and boring, lined with lashes that were nonexistent without twenty thousand coats of mascara. There seemed to be a permanent fixture of bags under her eyes, while her mouth seemed to remain in a straight line across her face. Whenever she smiled, on whatever rare occasion that was, there were unsightly dimples in her cheeks, like a freaking chipmunk or something of the sort. May was too short, her body too petite. Her nails weren’t long and glamourous, rather short and painted to match whatever she happened to be wearing on a certain day. And in matters of whats he was wearing that day, why did she even bother? She didn’t like to spend money very often, other than for the things she really needed in life. When she did spent money, she often spent a lot. That didn’t bother her much; she had more money than several people in the town combined did, yet she couldn’t even legally drink yet. Of course there were times when she was perfectly capable of buying things, like shirts or whatnot, that were on the less expensive end of things. Despite her copious amounts of money, she really wasn’t stuck up about it. It was just something that she always lived with growing up.

Ah, growing up, how she missed that so incredibly much. Her parents were alive, they were happy. Granted, the kids originally teased her for her inability to speak English, but she eventually grew to learn to be content with fading away into the background while the popular girls got asked out and whatnot. It was sad that she was content with being invisible, but now she was just sad. Actually, that was pretty much an understatement of the century. May contemplated her life so far as she searched around for her charm bracelet watch. Her parents were gone, Danny had left, then she tried to kill herself. If only they didn’t find her on the floor when they did. Just a few more minutes and she would have bled out and she would have been with her parents again. Then she met Chase, but like the constant stream of people leaving her in her life, he left as well. What a surprise. Then she tried to kill herself again, get hit by a speeding car or whatever, but Caellum was actually paying attention to where he was driving and stopped before he hit her. Then finally, when she started to open herself up to him, he left as well. You could say that this time it was an improvement, though not by a whole hell of a lot. It was just an improvement in the sense that this time a guy left her, she didn’t try to kill herself. That was always a good thing, right? She assumed so, though she couldn’t be too sure. She wasn’t well versed in the area of suicide assumptions.

May frowned to herself in the mirror of her vanity table before spotting her bracelet atop the small jewelry box that previously belong to her mother. She slipped the watch around her slender wrist, put on a necklace, then grabbed her shoes. Before putting them on, she dragged her lazy but down the stairs. No need to break her ankle on top of everything else. She grabbed her purse and her car keys before heading out to her baby, her lovely Rolls Royce that had been her sixteenth birthday present from her parents. Yeah…if the people at school didn’t like her before that, it was the equivalent of her showing up to the prom with Brad Pitt on her arm. Not that that happened, but same sort of level of jealousy. Then she was disliked even more. How nice of them. She popped into her car and just drove. She drove until the songs were out of her head along with the thoughts of anything important. She just drove until her mind was numb and that she didn’t actually have to focus on anything. Eventually she made it to the more core part of the town, not that the town was very big in the first place, and just wandered around aimlessly.

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[keisha]

`` Keisha sighed and looked out at the rain. She was sitting on the porch railing, not wanting to be inside. It wasn’t a particularly beautiful day, but then again she was the type of girl to think that a thunderstorm was gorgeous. The rain pattered away on the porch roof, and she sat and looked out at the sky from her dry perch. Strangely, Keisha had shoes on in this moment. Black and white DC’s. Usually that didn’t happen. She was so used to being barefoot that shoes bugged her just that much. She had a bunch of them though. Actually most of them had used to be her mother’s. Other pairs, however, she had lifted or, on a rare occasion, bought. She made sure though that if she lifted a pair of shoes, they were dirt cheap. It was kind of a priority of hers. The DC’s she had on now for example had been clearance for five bucks. Keisha’s eyes skimmed the forest line absently and suddenly stopped on the hardly noticeable gap in the trees.

`` Pulling in a deep breath, she got down quietly from the railing. She moved absently across the porch, and down the steps, walking out in the rain toward the trail. Back then, it hadn’t been nearly invisible. But Keisha could still see it, clear as day, like she was seven again. Before she could stop herself, she was pushing through the underbrush, running along the trail, stumbling where she knew she would, taking an extra long stride up and over divots. And then she stopped as suddenly as she had started. Around her the path was bare, seemingly stripped of all plant life. It was dead. Completely dead. Keisha choked on her own breath. Whirling around, she ran back down the path. The déjà vu moment hadn’t ended. Not yet. When she broke through the forest line to stare horrified at her home, she was half expecting to see Pete standing on the porch get ripped apart by a new born. Thankfully it wasn’t the case.

`` Even so, Keisha kept running. Past her house. And just kept running. She dashed easily down the street, heading out of La Push. And into Forks. She wanted to leave her problems. Leave them and never see them again. She wanted her parents back. She wanted her old life back. She wanted… she didn’t know anymore. Keisha ran all the way into town, than finally collapsed on a bench. Cradling her head in her hands for a moment, she took in deep steadying breaths. Finally she pulled it enough together to lean back and look around. The rain had sort of stopped, even though the sky was still dark. There were actually a good number of people still walking around too. Sucking in a deep breath, Keisha stood on shaky legs.

`` Now she had two options. Wander around Forks, or go back home. The latter seemed kind of stupid considering what had just happened. Wandering around Forks… that just seemed… boring. But she hadn’t really gotten the chance to wander around the town yet since she got home. She sighed and moved off down the street, glancing in various shop windows. Keisha tried picking out the familiar and the not so familiar. So far it wasn’t working too well for her. She’d only come into town on occasion with her mother. Back then Native Americans weren’t really allowed off reservations anywhere, not just in La Push. That’s why La Push had basically everything Forks had. Rounding the corner of the street, Keisha took two steps and sidestepped quickly. Not quickly enough, though and the two ran into each other. Pulling back quickly, Keisha sent a cold glare at the girl. ”Jeez, what the hell…?” Keisha had been about to say more but stopped herself short, because she got a good look at the girl. ”May? That you?” she asked, cursing herself. She had first met May a few days ago at the school when Keisha had been wandering around by the forest. They had gotten to know each other pretty well, and even better, they seemed to get along. Unfortunately, Keisha hadn’t seen May since then. Pulling on a sheepish smile, Keisha continued, ”Hey, long time no see. Sorry about that, I didn’t know it was you. How’ve you been?”

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[may]

here I am, hopeful again, I can’t say when I wasn’t this way

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<< may a n n a notte >>
don’t need to worry about me, that’s what I say
<< HERE I AM SWINGING ALONE, A TIME FRAME SURROUNDS THE PICTURES I HOLD >>[/center]

She must have been going insane. That was the only reason she could think of for the things that were floating through her mind at the current point in time. After all, she had genius level intelligence. Most people like that were a little bit crazy in some form or another, right? And if anything she would be more than likely to inherit that crazy trait. She always did think she was a little bit weird but maybe this was just solidifying what she had thought in her mind all these years. After all the supernatural just didn’t exist, right? May of all people knew that. She aced everything she was taught in high school. This was the girl that had no friends growing up so she had nothing better to do than to immerse herself into books and research to discover things about the world. No where in her research had she come up with any definitive proof that werewolves and vampires and the like existed. Sure, there were a bunch of crazy theories, but none of that was right.

At least…she thought it wasn’t right. How could it be right? The dead did not walk among them in any shape or form. The closest thing May would allow herself to believe would be that ghosts existed, even though she had personally never seen one. That would be her one allowance. But vampires? No, that wasn’t right, it COULDN’T be right. How on earth was blood substantial enough to keep any creature alive? She supposed bugs were a different story, but humans beings? No, human beings needed all sorts of nutrients and other such things to keep them alive. Which blood was definitely rich in iron it wasn’t that rich in anything else that would keep a person functioning. But then there was Danny…his blood red eyes…everything he told her, then he left and never saw her again. She couldn’t help but wonder if he was telling the truth. Why would he have told her the truth? That seemed like decades ago even if it was less than two years ago. She hated it really. She hated not knowing the facts behind something. But then there was Rexx and his eyes…no. She wouldn’t let herself jump to crazy conclusions.

None of this was real, absolutely none of it. If it was real that she was a purple turtle that could walk on ceilings and survive on chocolate bars. While that would be a very delightful existence she didn’t think it was one that would ever happen. And werewolves? Two different kinds, shapeshifters and children of the moon, nonetheless? No, something was definitely not right with the world. May walked around town like the previously mentioned zombie and wondered just what the hell she was supposed to do. Maybe she’d just leave town and forget anything ever happened. It would be hard for her to leave her house, but maybe she wouldn’t have to sell it. She could keep it and then just rent a tiny apartment somewhere. It wasn’t like money was the issue here. May should have been paying attention to where she was going but of course she wasn’t. That lead her to run into someone. She wasn’t surprised by the girl’s reaction; most people didn’t like when you randomly went around bashing into them. “Oh, sorry,”

[/color] she muttered quietly. She hated when people were mad at her. She looked up and saw the girl she had met a few days prior. “Oh, hi, Keisha. Sorry about the whole…you know…bashing into you thing. I guess I was just in another world,”[/color] she laughed it off, though on the inside she knew she was as messed up as a nut bar.

She just hoped that the whole accident wouldn’t cause Keisha to decide that May was not the type of person to be hanging around with. Frankly she probably wasn’t, but May never had that many friends and she didn’t want to pass up the one person that didn’t find her annoying or too smart or too whatever yet. Though she had met Keisha at the school May had actually just graduated. She was done but she had to get a few things from her teachers. At least she was free of the school forever now. “No worries, I often get really distracted,”[/color] she shrugged it off. Honestly May didn’t mind. The truth was she was not used to getting out of her house and she wasn’t used to hanging around people. She hadn’t thought it was weird that they hadn’t spoken since but maybe in the real world it was. “I’m good, I guess. Just have a lot of things on my mind. You know, random thoughts about the universe and other things that make no sense,”[/color] she laughed. “How about you? Done anything interesting yet? This town can be too boring sometimes.” Well, that was lie. It was boring but it was eventful. WAY too eventful.[/blockquote]

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[keisha]

`` Keisha cursed herself in her mind again. May was such a sweetheart, and Keisha should’ve held her tongue before she swore like that. The poor girl in front of her didn’t need that at all. ”Don’t apologize, that was my bad,” Keisha tried, and gave a small smile. She wasn’t at all mad at May, more so at herself for that matter. When Keisha was that put off she tended to snap at just about anyone. It wasn’t exactly a good trait, but it had kind of grown on to her. A small smile flitted across her lips at May’s statement. ”I guess I was just in another world.” Wasn’t that the truth? Keisha didn’t know for sure if May knew about the other side of Forks. She might not. May had a very scientific mind, and it was very apparent since Keisha had met her. Keisha didn’t mind it at all, actually she found it fairly interesting. And conversations were definitely never boring. Keisha herself didn’t have as high a mind as May, and she knew that, but a conversation between the two was brilliant exercise for Keisha’s brain. ”No worries. You and me both. I wasn’t actually planning on coming here today. Just sorta happened.” She said with a shrug, looking around at passersby.

`` For some reason, Keisha still had that strange sense of déjà vu. It bugged her greatly. And she was still somewhat trippy because of it. She was still a bit put off, but having run into May helped a bit. It was a thankful distraction. If not completely, she’d at least be a bit better by the time she had to leave. Her thoughts would all be once again in tow instead of scampering around and through her head like wild horses. Human interaction at least helped that much. Or running did. Running wasn’t an option really, but the first was for sure. Keisha smiled slightly at May. ”I was a bit distracted myself. Really it’s not your fault,”

[/color] she answered easily with conviction. It was the truth in its entirety really. As for what Keisha had been distracted by, that was harder really to put into words.

`` She listened and smiled again. Keisha laughed lightly along with May. ”I know the feeling. Of having your head full of thoughts at least. The universe however, I kind of gave up on trying to figure out long ago,” Keisha answered, a small smile pulling up one corner of her mouth. She paused a moment though thinking about what she really had done. She shrugged. ”Been alright. Could be better, but I won’t complain. But as for interesting no… not really. Haven’t done anything that could be considered so, anyway. Met a few people, made a friend or two,”[/color] she answered shooting a smile at May. She considered May a friend, maybe not a best friend yet, but definitely one worth getting to know. She shrugged again. ”It’s the people I think that have kept me sane since coming back.”[/color]

`` Keisha glanced around then looked back at May. They looked about the same age, even though Keisha was so much older. So that was totally fine. She grinned though at May. ”Hey, we’re you doing anything in particular down here or just wandering? Maybe we could hang for a little while?”[/color] she asked the girl beside her. Keisha was weirdly very accustomed to slang terms from this century. It was easier to pull off a teenager in this time and fit in. This she was extremely thankful for. She knew a few who weren’t so accustomed to fitting in with these times. Or they were but had trouble keeping in this century. Luckily, neither she nor Pete had that issue. It may have been the fact that they were stuck as teenagers. Personally, Keisha liked to think that it was because the two had always been kind of ahead on the times as they grew up and watched the world change. She contemplated this in silence while she waited for May’s answer.
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[may]

here I am, hopeful again, I can’t say when I wasn’t this way

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<< may a n n a notte >>
don’t need to worry about me, that’s what I say
<< HERE I AM SWINGING ALONE, A TIME FRAME SURROUNDS THE PICTURES I HOLD >>[/center]

May kind of just wanted to crawl into a little hole and die somewhere. This was one of the reasons she never used to go outside. She’d either meet people that would want to talk for ten hours or she would just randomly bash into people because she wasn’t paying enough attention to where she was going. Normally most people didn’t mind if she accidentally bumped into them but there were some people that would act like it was the end of the world. She didn’t know why. It took maybe three seconds out of their day. She was sure that they would be fine. May frowned slightly and almost protested that it had in fact been her own fault, not Keisha’s, but she had learned that most people will just protest right back and it would become a never ending thing of protesting. May furrowed her brow slightly at Keisha’s next statement. “What do you mean by that?”

[/color] she asked. My never understood why humans acted the way they did. She was too out of it to understand people.

“Had you not intended on going here specifically and just weren’t paying attention, or you just had nothing better to do?” [/color]she further asked to clarify her confusion. Sometimes when May became confused and asked people questions in turn THEY became confused and then it was just one big party of confusion. That wasn’t fun and she didn’t want that to happen all of a sudden when they probably could have been talking about better things. “What are you distracted by?”[/color] May asked. Okay, so most people didn’t just come out and ask, but May wasn’t like most people. She had no barrier and didn’t always know what you were supposed to ask and what you weren’t suppsosed to ask. But Keisha spoke a statement that could have potentially lead to questions, so really it was her own fault if she didn’t want to explain. Not that May would ever pressure someone into answering something they didn’t want to. That would just be mean.

May smiled and laughed lightly. See? She could play normal sometimes. “Yeah, I suppose it is rather large for one person to figure out in their lifetime,”[/color] she admitted. May probably should just go ahead and give up, but there was something about her mind that just refused to let things go until she had the answer. Was that really bad? She didn’t think so, but perhaps it was a hinderance on just enjoying life. Not that she had much to enjoy anymore. “Everything could always be better,” May said and shrugged lightly. She was an expert at dealing with shitty things and had yet to come across someone that was completely happy with their life or the events that were occurring at the present moment in time. “People tend to do that. Either they’ll save your sanity or they’ll make it go down the drain. It’s never a mixture of both, it’s always either one or the other,”[/color] she laughed. She didn’t know why people had to be so complicated and crazy, but there were.

May shrugged and looked around to see where she actually was. “Not really, just wandering,”[/color] she admitted. There was no point in hiding it seeing as she thought it was fairly obvious. Though it was somewhat strange that May of all people was just wandering around. May preferred to say inside unless she really needed to go out. May smiled and nodded. “Sure, that sounds like fun. More exciting than what I was doing, which was nothing,”[/color] she grinned. May wasn’t really used to hanging out with people. At least, she hadn’t in a long time, aside from boyfriends. And all of her boyfriends screwed her over in some way or another. The only boy she was hanging out with now was Rexx and she was scared to let him in because she didn’t want to get hurt by him, too. Plus, there was that whole bright red eye thing that freaked her out but she couldn’t confront him about. It just reminded her way too much of the ex that was a vampire. She failed. She had a vampire ex, a werewolf ex, a dead set of parents, and she couldn’t cook anything. It was a miracle that she was as sane as she was. “Is there anywhere in particular you really wanna go?”[/color] she asked, indifferent on where they actually went.[/blockquote]

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